Insanity

Well its Insanity monday! and you know what the means... Im doing insanity lol ya ya ya I know it sounds stupid, but i feel so good after the class.  My confidence even goes up a little well, im trying to push my confidence up because hubby and I are going on a cruise in 33 days and I want to be bikini ready and well I don't look that bad right know but I have to feel good to look good right?  It's really all in my head.  I have low self-esteam (I really do) ya I know that im usually all smiles and laughing but Im really mean to myself.  Which is bad because then im really mean to the people I love most like hubby.  Most of our fights are because of me I think....Well and he is a boy and he just doesn't get me most of the time.  Its like the song that katy parry did the one that says "your hot then your cold your yes then your no..." but in my version its your hot and im cold your yes and im no....ya that's my life sometimes.  Anyways, what was I blabbing about ah yes nothing...um.
There was a new guy in class tonight and I felt bad for him cause he was the only class with a bunch of girls and he was out of shape so he was huffing and puffing trying to keep up.  I was really worried that he was going to puke or something cause he was coughing like he wasn't getting enough oxogen.
The more that I go to these classes the more I wish I could teach them, I think I would be good at it.  I would say what do you guys think but there really is no you guys out there huh? and im ok with that cause I can say whatever I want and no one will get upset huh like jkfalusio jsaoisjd howeijwif I bet no one will catch that hee hee.
I know its a little late but I think im going to make tacos yum that sounds good yes tacos ha
Sorry this blog is a little boring but hell I don't know how to blog yet and I really don't have a subject like more people do and oh man do I love reading other peoples stuff I do I do.

I think im going to do some yoga before bed wish me luck