horses

I had a dream, I was in a horse competition and I had to saddle my horse but he was freaking out and I was having a hard time but I ended up doing and ever thing was fine.

he was a huge black horse
I had to clean him, saddle him, then show him,
blanket was brown and red with some white on the edges
I had my white F-150 The funny thing was the horse was in the back set :)
oh ya I couldn't figure out how to put new stirrups on and I was getting stressed out.


I had two dreams last night but I only had the other one because I read my book to late and I was dreaming about it, so im not going to record it.  

http://www.dreammoods.com/dreamthemes/animals.htm

Horse

To see a horse in your dream, symbolizes strength, power, endurance, virility and sexual prowess. It also represents a strong, physical energy.  You need to tame the wild forces within. The dream may also be a pun that you are "horsing around". Alternatively, to see a horse in your dream, indicate that you need to be less arrogant and "get off your high horse".

To see a black or dark horse in your dream, signifies mystery, wildness, and the unknown. You are taking a chance or a gamble at some unknown situation. It may even refer to occult forces. If the horse is white, then it  signifies purity, prosperity and good fortunes. To dream that you are being chased by a white horse, may be a pun on chaste. Perhaps you are having difficulties dealing with issues of intimacy and sexuality. 

To dream that you are riding a horse, suggests that you are in a high position or position of power. Alternatively, it indicates that you will achieve success through underhanded means. You lack integrity. If you are riding a horse that is out of control, then it means that you are being carried away by your passions.

To dream that you are bathing a horse, represents a renewal of strength and vigor. You are experiencing a burst of energy in some aspect of your life. 

Test

To dream that you are taking an exam, indicates that you are being put to the test or being scrutinized in some way. These dreams highlight some anxiety or agitation that you are experiencing in your waking life. In such dreams, you may find that you cannot answer any of the questions on the test, that the test is in some foreign language or that your pencil keeps breaking during the test. Perhaps time is running out and you cannot complete the exam in the allowed time. Or perhaps, you arrive late and miss the exam. These factors contribute to failing the dream test. These dreams usually have to do with your self-esteem and confidence or the lack of. You tend to believe in the worst about yourself and are often overly worried that you are not making the grade and measuring up to other people's expectations of you. You may also experience the fear of not being accepted, not being prepared, or not being good enough.

Test dreams also suggest that you are feeling unprepared for a challenge. Rarely, these dreams are about the actual content of the test, but rather it is more about the process and how you feel during the exam taking process. These feelings often parallel how you are actually feeling in a particular challenge or situation in your waking like.

Test dreams are also an indication that you are being judged. These dreams serve as a signal for you to examine an aspect of yourself that you may have been neglecting and need to pay more attention to. You may be harboring some guilt because you did not prepare enough for a school exam, meeting, business project, or some project. Most of the time, though, people who have such dreams are unlikely to fail a test in real life. This dream is rooted in the fear and anxiety that you may not meet other's standards. You are afraid to let others down.

Brown

Brown denotes worldliness, practicality, domestic bliss, physical comfort, conservatism, and a materialistic character. Brown also represents the ground and earth. You need to get back to your roots.

Red

Red is an indication of raw energy, force, vigor, intense passion, aggression, power, courage, impulsiveness and passion. The color red has deep emotional and spiritual connotations. Consider the phrase "seeing red" to denote anger. Alternatively, the color red in your dream indicates a lack of energy. You are feeling tired or lethargic.

Red is also the color of danger, violence, blood, shame, rejection, sexual impulses and urges. Perhaps you need to stop and think about your actions

floating islands

I can't describe my whole dream from last night because it was just to weird.   Really, I had three or four dreams one right after the other, but they were not related or go with each other.  Never mind I take that back the first and second one have parts that go together but no the third.  The lat one was so special it almost made me cry.

This is really weird and Im going to type it out really weird so please forgive me.

1)   Wow I don't really remember the first one but water and floods.  It was dark out and I was trying to get kodi (my husky) into truck but he just kept running down the road into a field, he would turn around and start running as fast as he can back to me, for no reason but he just couldn't run in that direction anymore. When he got the me, still going full speed, I would have to just grab him and hold on for dear life.  I remember I needed to get ever one to a save place because something bad is going to happen like a flood or something.  Snow was cracking off the sides of mountains, and the flood was coming.  I remember thinking I don't think im going to make it and Im not going to be able to save my dogs. go to dream (2)
       I  grabbed dogs and throw them into the truck and raced off.  The water was slowly coming up to the tired.  I was know in my parents neighborhood the water was a little higher now and it was pushing the truck around.  One of the neighbors was backing his trailer up to another car and he kept getting in my way,  I accidentally hit both the trailer and the car because I couldn't see them because they were under water.   I pulled into my parents driveway and we all got into the house    

 2)    The earth started shaking and it was raining I was this other girl with short curly hair and I had two friends with me but I can't remember their names (i think one of them was my old friend bre),  I also had a brother and he was on a trip but he wasn't answering his phone.  I was about 16-18 in this dream.  I was in my moms house, it was a really big house with closets the size of a small room there was even places to sit in them.  Like I said the earth was shaking the planet was mad,  it was really dry out side so we kept running to the windows to make sure there was no fires.  The sky looked angry like it wanted to open up with chaotic lightning.  It was about dusk so the sky and clouds were really dark, or maybe it was dawn?  I could see that there was purple in the clouds a really angry dark purple, and my friends and I knew that was a bad sign.  Where was my brother damn it I need to know if he is ok!  
       There was something flooding in the air but I couldn't see what it was.  There was two very big objects floating around the whole town, after 5 rotations around the city I could start to see what it was, it was part of the earth with mountains, rocks, and trees.  The flood was coming.  I could see the water hitting houses and taking out trees.  It was rising fast I didn't know when or if it was ever going to stop. go to dream (3)..........The girls and I kept running from window to window trying to see anything.  Something told me to go back to my room window and look out that one.  It took me a second to get back up the stairs and look out it.  The floating earth was getting closer to MY house I could see know that nestled in between some trees there was some recliners two of them and both were blue and a coffee table in between the recliners.  "Ok?" I thought that was really weird.  but I couldn't see anything else....wait!  is that a person on the floating earth?  Yes it is! He is just walking around and there is a panda and something else but I can't see what it is.
       The girls and I leave the window and just go around the house being girls (strange huh) we were trying on clothes, putting on makeup, and doing our hair and not putting anything away.   (DON'T ASK)  at that moment I heard something and I ran back to my window and the floating earth was so close to the house it looked like it was going to run into it.....Well it did, but it came to a stop.  The guy came up to my window and knocked.  I stood there for a second I didn't know what to do, so I just opened it.  He put out his hand so I could grab it.  What! was he crazy he wanted me to go out on the floating island?   But i did cause he was cute in a scruffy kind of way.  He lead me over to a recliner and we sat down.  It was still raining but there was some trees that were keeping the rain off our heads.   He pulled out a bag of something and asked if I wanted any.  At first I didn't know what it was.   With a second look I could tell it was a bag of weed. ha.  I asked him why he had it and he told me.  "how would you like being stuck on a floating island and not have anything,  hell ya you would smoke too." I couldn't think of anything to say so he went on, "I have seen some crazy shit in my life."  I thought to myself I bet he has.   He smoked a little then passed it to me (I don't think I smoked any but im not sure either) He raised a finger and pointed to the panda that was just sitting down minding his own business eating some bamboo leaves.  The stoner said, "Do you recognize him?"  I shook my head no.  He curled his finger towards him self asking the panda to come to him, and it did.  But, the panda stood up on his hind legs and walked over when he got closer I could see it was just a pudgy wearing a black and white t-shirt and his face was painted white... It was a bad paint job too I could see the peachy skin tone of his face on the outside of the face paint.
      When he got closer I jumped out of my seat and run up to him.  It was my brother, "what the hell happened to you?"  but he just pulled his shoulders up to his ears and walked inside.  I turned to the stoner he shrugged his shoulders as well and followed.  (I have no idea still what the other animal person or what ever that thing was on the island)  Dream (4)

3)    It was sunny outside and I wanted to go for bike ride.  I jumped on it and was just riding down any trial or road I could find, but I remember taking a lot of rights if I had a choice.  It was nice to just go.   There was another biker on the road and he was hugging the right side of the trail so I went onto the left.  When I was passing him he got really angry and yelled at me...I looked back and said sorry and kept going.  He sped up to me and punched my back hard enough to almost knock me off my bike.  I just tried to speed up, but he was always on my tail.  We where both going down hill now and he was catching up to me, and when he did we both fell to the ground.
       I must have passed out because I woke up in some kind of room.  I woke up to him cleaning my cuts and wow he was handsome, he had dark brown hair and dark tan and a three day old beard, and he asked me why I passed him.   I thought that was really weird but I just told him I didn't think it was a big deal, I was going faster so I passed him.  Then he told me that he is really competitive and he doesn't like to lose.  I didn't know what to say to that, he left the room and came back with some bread and cheeses.  That's when my belly started to rumble, he sat down next to me and we had a little picnic in this room.   He was being so nice to me I was so grateful that this man nocked me to the ground, I would have never met him other wise then I leaned over and kissed him. (back to dream 2)

(4)    The stoner was still with me but we were floating in the air like ghosts.  We were over spain and the tomato fight was about to begin.  The strange thing was there was a really tall black guy running around with a baby strapped to his chest.  I pulled on the stoners sleeve and pointed to what was going on.  The stoner advised me that he was like an assassin (but he had another name for him)  he has a mission and he must finish it or he will die.  I told him about the baby on his chest.  The stoner cocked his head and said he normally doesn't take his baby along but he must have his reasons.  We zoomed in to get a closer look at what was happening.  He was fighting some of the tomato war people and wining he was a really good butt kicker, I thought.  He got jumped from behind and he was doing the best he could to protect the baby from getting hit, but I think I saw someone hit him and I could see a little black eye forming on his face.
      There were so many people on top of our assassin that I thought he was going to die, but he busted out of the pile up and started running.  He ran into a wear house (it kind of was like Walmart) and proceeded to kick peoples butts.  From behind me I could hear this tiny helicopter thing and when I looked it was a contraption that had some balloons some string and yes a little helicopter pushing it.  Our assassin wasn't doing that good and I think that this contraption was his get away but he had to many people on him still and he was getting tired.  I wanted to get down there and help him.  When the thing got closer to him he grabbed it and tried to hold on but he kept slipping,  so he took off his baby chest carrier and wrapped it around the string a few times then said, "Home!" the little helicopter took off and the guy was left standing there on the ground fighting for his lift.
     I think the tables were turned now because he was really getting into the fight.  Bobbing, weaving, ducking, and throwing punches when he needed to and kicking as well.  He was some kind of MMA guru or something I thought.  The door on the other side of the building opened up and a fat guy walked through.  He was dressed like an old mob guy, with a gray suit, black fur coat, and a black cane, and started walking over to our assassin.......

That's when I woke up          

march 23

Less than 20 days till our trip, and the weird dream start.   well, I have always had weird dream but normally I don't dream of planes.  
Normally when I dream and there is a house involved it's normally my old house in Cali but this house was also an old house of mine in wyoming. One I have never had a dream about but it was different and i'm not sure why yet.



I was inside my house with my parents, we were all watching tv in the living room when I heard a sound. I wanted to go check it out.  Since we lived near the airport I heard a lot of planes taking off and landing but this one sounded different, it was more muffled then others and it sounded low way to low.  I went outside to see if I could get a look at it.  It was a slightly cloudy night, if you looked hard enough you could almost see the stars.  I started looking around for the plane, remembering that if something is moving fast the sound will be a few miles behind it, so I started looking ahead of the sound.   There it was  a plane I thought it was kind of weird looking, it was like a big rectangle.   I stared racking my brain thinking of what plane that could be but nothing was coming to mind.   I welled for my dad to come take a look.  The foreign plane swooped over our house then started going higher into the sky turned to go  towards the airport (so I thought it was a military plane), when it turned I could see the top half which had a long line of lights that cut the rectangle in half, then passed back over our house, before dad made it outside (this thing was fast).  We both were looking for it since it went back over the house, when it came back into view it was descending down from the clouds.  I could see the engines know, or something that looked like it, but I could see a blue force shooting down out of the craft like it was coming to a stop in mid air, it was hovering!  My dad and I looked at each other and back at the craft, something just wasn't right it shouldn't be stopping hovering whatever right there.  Right then it turned on two lights and started moving them all around like it was looking for something, but what?  I was thinking that we may need to round up the animals cause this just isn't right at all.  Just when I was thinking that it started shooting my neighborhood up,  I could see the explosions and they were starting to move this way.  I jumped into action I yelled, "we need to get into the basement!" mom, dad, the two dogs, cat, and myself were all down there then I remembered that I had a bird.  I ran back upstairs and got him then went back down.  We sat in a corner for a few minuets but nothing happened, so I volunteered to go look.  The craft had just flow over the house and was now over the airport and this time it was dropping bombs! And coming this was...I yelled down the stairs to my parents what was going on and they came upstairs to look also, they shut the door to the basement so the animals where all in one place if we need to get to them fast.  It seemed like it was dropping bombes every few miles but I wasn't sure.  The one that was dropped at the airport just blew up and a few in the field started blowing up as well, so they must have been on a timer or something like that.  One was dropped in the middle from the field close to my house and I jumped when it hit the ground.  We started to hear a whistle when the last one dropped and we all looked up, one was coming right at us...we didn't have anywhere to run, we went a little further outside to see where it was going to land and yes it was coming at our house.  We all went into the garage to a far wall hopping that would help...It must have because after a loud crash were where still alive.  We knew that we didn't have that much time because we knew the bomb would blow up any second, and I needed to know if the animals were ok.  We went around the corner and there was a large round bomb (the kind you would see in mario brothers, it even had the wick hanging out of it) just sitting in the kitchen.  I told my parents that I needed to get the dogs, so I opened the door and ran down the stairs garbed the dogs and took them back up and to the garage so my parents can watch them...I crept back around the corner to look into the kitchen to see how much time I still had to get the cat and bird, not much I thought, but I still jumped down the stairs and scooped up the cat I couldn't get the bird because the cat was a little to wiggly, ill have to get him in a second.  After I got the cat to the garage I really thought the thing would have blown up by now but it hadn't.  My mom said it was because loki was watching out for us (loki was my dog that passed away a few years ago, or maybe she was really meaning loki the god?) I took my chances and went back in but this time I stopped and looked just a little at the bomb, my imagination really wanted to round bomb to have a smily face on it but of corse it didn't.   I went and got the bird and went back to our hiding spot in the garage.  Not three seconds later the bomb blew up, my dad looked at my mom and said, "that's going to level the house we wont be able to salvage anything from it, sorry."  Which we all kind of already knew.   We went back outside to look at the damage the craft had done and it really wasn't that much, i was surprised more than anything, the craft was gone, and the sun was coming up.  My dad went back to the garage and opened the garage doors so we could get a cross breeze, all the animals were ok.  The dogs were just sitting on the cool cement the cat went outside to eat some grass, and I stood there with my mouth hanging open because they are acting like everything was ok! I didn't know what to do.  My dad said everyone get in the truck, we are going to have a better look around.  Ok? sure why not.  So we did, and when we where driving there was only little burnt up spots in the field that would be grown over with new grass and weeds in a few weeks and we drove down to the south side of the field where the play ground was.  It was still standing and that when I saw there was an archery range with a sign saying only for boy scouts, a dog obstacle corse, and a running track.  I said out loud "Cool" because I wanted to try all that stuff out, but even in my head the events from last night were drifting away from me like it never happened.  I was trying my best to hold onto them...

Then I woke up.  

blah monkey feet

Im on day 9 of my crazy...get belly flat before april 8th...workout, I had to take one day off and that was yesterday...I was just so tired and I thought if would be nice if my body got to rest a little.  Did it help?  NO!  Im still tried and now I don't want to do it today, I should have just stuck with it and push through it... ha this sucks.  I have been trying to come up with a nick name for my hubby and nothing ever comes to mind....I have tried puffin (cause he's a smoker) but I can't bring myself to call him that because one of the girls from girls next door on E called hugh that all the time, and so when ever I open my mouth just a giggle comes out.  I have called him shit head but that's just not nice.  um, honey is just over rated.  I usually just call him by his real name, but the only problem is its such a common name and I have always been the kind of person that has given and called people nicknames my whole life so why am I having such a hard time coming up with one for him?   The other day he bought these...............Im not really a big fan but he likes them...I have heard that they are really good for your well body,  I guess they make you use your toes the way that we were supposed to use them.  blah blah blah....wait that's a good thing!!!!??  ug I just find them ugly,  so I have been tossing the nickname monkey around a little cause every time he wears them I call him monkey feet.. hee hee.


Monkey and I got into a really nasty fight today.  It started at the bank we were trying to figure what day we were going on vacation he said the 8th and I said the 7th.  Hell not really a big deal right? WRONG! hell of a big deal!  The lady that was helping us with something was trying to also say its not that big of a deal when monkey looks at me, and with a little growl in his voice says, Oh, we are going to figure this our RIGHT NOW!....I almost walked off cause who in the hell are you to talk to me like im 5? I am not below you we are equals, well I thought we were.   I sucked it up and thought about it a little more and just gave in cause its not really that big of a deal... Later when we got back to the truck I had to open my big mouth.  I just had to let him have it.  I told him that wasn't really nice by what he said to me and how it upset me (I wasn't that calm)...he didn't understand because I didn't say anything at the moment it happened.  So ya maybe I should have said something right when it happened but I didn't want to yell at him in front of everyone that would just be crazy talk :)....oh ya I forgot to say that really pissed him off because he was really happy when we were leaving the bank and like I said I opened a can of worms when we got back to the truck.    About 5 min later we are still talking about the same thing but know its changed to "you need to not shut down on me"  let me explain.   D...Monkey hates to argue (I think its cause if I believe in something I will defend myself to the end! but I can back myself up too...I think) He says it just easier to give in, and yes that is true, but he just stops talking to me altogether!  So, I may have been wrong when I did this but I asked him "do you know how it feels when someone just stops talking with you when your talking to them?  he said "no"  then I proceeded to cross my arm and turn my back to him then said I'm right your wrong! like a little kid would do.....welll that got him a little steamed up and he just said I'm done, I'm just done talking about this!  Me: well, im not done and if we are ever going to get over this problem we have with arguing and not ever getting our problems resolved we have to start somewhere, so why not here?   He did agree with me.  But that funny thing is we stopped talking about it and never resolved our problem.  Ha funny right.  So come on next argument Im going to slap you in the face with a big REALLY!!!!
The problem is I like to argue, I don't think all arguments are bad.  They can help you learn.  Know I don't like to yell but a good make you think debate is fun, and how else am I suppose to get to know him better huh?  We can't talk about our pasted because he say's they are our pasted,  I agree with that but I want to know how old he was when he first had sex.  What did he do on his first date, things like that and I feel like I will be crossing the line if I ask and Im already stepping on toes here.  I love him don't get me wrong but sometimes I just have to wonder.......nope im not going to finish that :)


ahhhhh...im done lol im just kind of tired typing.  I think im off to the bar to drink away some of my pain
see ya

doin good

Day 4

So far so good...I have been working out every day for the past 4 days...and on those days I add a little more core training.  Im feeling good and I feel like im really getting a good routine down.. I like that when that instead of sitting in front of the tv I workout, and I feel good doing it :) yay me.

The only change that i'm seeing so far is my arms! I have little baby muscles coming out and showing off hee hee.  OH ya, and me knee oh man it has been so long since I have been able to do a really good low squat because of my knee and its pain I am able to go a little deeper um well about every other day...hell im good with that. Know if I can just get back on track with crochet o_O I love to crochet but im just in a little rut with that I don't know what to make and when I do start making something I hate it, or I get bored with it cause I want it done so I can see the finished product............grrr

day 3

Well now....I have 28 days till the cruise YAY I can't wait, but i'm still not happy with my bikini body.  Then I wonder if I will ever be?   I get my hair done the other day and Erin (who is some what of a body builder but she does the bikini parts, I think it might be called "shape") she told me that I need to be doing abs everyday.  Your abs are such a small muscle that its ok to work them everyday.  Just 3 days ago I started doing them everyday, so far so good.   They hurt but feel good which is a good thing right lol... Also, im trying to eat better, well not really to much better just trying to eat the amount of calories that my body is supposed to handle, so far so good with that one too.  Well I guess not really last night I really wanted fries so hell I got fries and they just about killed me,  right when I was done eating my stomach started to growl in protest that I would put something with that much grease in it.....WHAT, but I love greasy fries especially on friday night when we are all at coffee...yum.....Hell I almost got sick it sucked.

I forgot to say that yesterday was day 3 and today is really day 4 I am just a day behind on the updates

Insanity

Well its Insanity monday! and you know what the means... Im doing insanity lol ya ya ya I know it sounds stupid, but i feel so good after the class.  My confidence even goes up a little well, im trying to push my confidence up because hubby and I are going on a cruise in 33 days and I want to be bikini ready and well I don't look that bad right know but I have to feel good to look good right?  It's really all in my head.  I have low self-esteam (I really do) ya I know that im usually all smiles and laughing but Im really mean to myself.  Which is bad because then im really mean to the people I love most like hubby.  Most of our fights are because of me I think....Well and he is a boy and he just doesn't get me most of the time.  Its like the song that katy parry did the one that says "your hot then your cold your yes then your no..." but in my version its your hot and im cold your yes and im no....ya that's my life sometimes.  Anyways, what was I blabbing about ah yes nothing...um.
There was a new guy in class tonight and I felt bad for him cause he was the only class with a bunch of girls and he was out of shape so he was huffing and puffing trying to keep up.  I was really worried that he was going to puke or something cause he was coughing like he wasn't getting enough oxogen.
The more that I go to these classes the more I wish I could teach them, I think I would be good at it.  I would say what do you guys think but there really is no you guys out there huh? and im ok with that cause I can say whatever I want and no one will get upset huh like jkfalusio jsaoisjd howeijwif I bet no one will catch that hee hee.
I know its a little late but I think im going to make tacos yum that sounds good yes tacos ha
Sorry this blog is a little boring but hell I don't know how to blog yet and I really don't have a subject like more people do and oh man do I love reading other peoples stuff I do I do.

I think im going to do some yoga before bed wish me luck