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Im on day 9 of my crazy...get belly flat before april 8th...workout, I had to take one day off and that was yesterday...I was just so tired and I thought if would be nice if my body got to rest a little.  Did it help?  NO!  Im still tried and now I don't want to do it today, I should have just stuck with it and push through it... ha this sucks.  I have been trying to come up with a nick name for my hubby and nothing ever comes to mind....I have tried puffin (cause he's a smoker) but I can't bring myself to call him that because one of the girls from girls next door on E called hugh that all the time, and so when ever I open my mouth just a giggle comes out.  I have called him shit head but that's just not nice.  um, honey is just over rated.  I usually just call him by his real name, but the only problem is its such a common name and I have always been the kind of person that has given and called people nicknames my whole life so why am I having such a hard time coming up with one for him?   The other day he bought these...............Im not really a big fan but he likes them...I have heard that they are really good for your well body,  I guess they make you use your toes the way that we were supposed to use them.  blah blah blah....wait that's a good thing!!!!??  ug I just find them ugly,  so I have been tossing the nickname monkey around a little cause every time he wears them I call him monkey feet.. hee hee.


Monkey and I got into a really nasty fight today.  It started at the bank we were trying to figure what day we were going on vacation he said the 8th and I said the 7th.  Hell not really a big deal right? WRONG! hell of a big deal!  The lady that was helping us with something was trying to also say its not that big of a deal when monkey looks at me, and with a little growl in his voice says, Oh, we are going to figure this our RIGHT NOW!....I almost walked off cause who in the hell are you to talk to me like im 5? I am not below you we are equals, well I thought we were.   I sucked it up and thought about it a little more and just gave in cause its not really that big of a deal... Later when we got back to the truck I had to open my big mouth.  I just had to let him have it.  I told him that wasn't really nice by what he said to me and how it upset me (I wasn't that calm)...he didn't understand because I didn't say anything at the moment it happened.  So ya maybe I should have said something right when it happened but I didn't want to yell at him in front of everyone that would just be crazy talk :)....oh ya I forgot to say that really pissed him off because he was really happy when we were leaving the bank and like I said I opened a can of worms when we got back to the truck.    About 5 min later we are still talking about the same thing but know its changed to "you need to not shut down on me"  let me explain.   D...Monkey hates to argue (I think its cause if I believe in something I will defend myself to the end! but I can back myself up too...I think) He says it just easier to give in, and yes that is true, but he just stops talking to me altogether!  So, I may have been wrong when I did this but I asked him "do you know how it feels when someone just stops talking with you when your talking to them?  he said "no"  then I proceeded to cross my arm and turn my back to him then said I'm right your wrong! like a little kid would do.....welll that got him a little steamed up and he just said I'm done, I'm just done talking about this!  Me: well, im not done and if we are ever going to get over this problem we have with arguing and not ever getting our problems resolved we have to start somewhere, so why not here?   He did agree with me.  But that funny thing is we stopped talking about it and never resolved our problem.  Ha funny right.  So come on next argument Im going to slap you in the face with a big REALLY!!!!
The problem is I like to argue, I don't think all arguments are bad.  They can help you learn.  Know I don't like to yell but a good make you think debate is fun, and how else am I suppose to get to know him better huh?  We can't talk about our pasted because he say's they are our pasted,  I agree with that but I want to know how old he was when he first had sex.  What did he do on his first date, things like that and I feel like I will be crossing the line if I ask and Im already stepping on toes here.  I love him don't get me wrong but sometimes I just have to wonder.......nope im not going to finish that :)


ahhhhh...im done lol im just kind of tired typing.  I think im off to the bar to drink away some of my pain
see ya